Judgement Day

I have been working very hard to be a better person. To not judge someone on what they look like, where they are from, or their past. Not to get mad when someone says the wrong things. To think before I speak and even say sorry when I have done nothing wrong. 

This has not been easy, you see my husband and I have been going through a lot lately. He has quit his job and is now going back to school. I am going back to work after three years (yay me). God has put on my husbands heart to go into the ministry and even more specifically for music. 

My husband has made many mistakes in his past and even in his recent past since we have been married. My husband likes to drink. He used to have a drink every night, not get drunk but just drink. But it got to the point to where it was a habit. He would get home from work and want a drink. When the kids would go to bed, he would want a drink. My husband used to lie. Lie about dumb things. Lie to me about stuff that I had no idea why he would even lie for I did not care about the things that he was lying to me about. 

Every since the day that God put this on my husbands heart, he has not had a drink. He is proving to me that he is being serious about this decision and will be starting school in the fall. Yet many people judge him for his past, for things that he has done. Why is it that some people, people I have looked up to for giving me Godly advise judge him? Do they think he is not good enough or just do not have faith that he will see this through? 

I understand that someone has to prove themselves but should you not encourage them to do so? Especially when someone is wanting to do Gods work! My heart hurts for my husband for I truly see the changes he has made in his life and his walk with God. I just wish that others could look past his past. To not judge him. To encourage him on this journey we are walking through. I do not want him to give up. I want him to feel loved and supported. I thank God that his parents have helped us out through this hard time we have been going through. 

I pray for God to help me with this judgement thing. I know it is extremely hard to not judge someone. But now that my husband is going through this, I understand the other side of judgement and will work 10x harder to be better and hope that others will do the same.