So…. I’ve been avoiding my blog for the last couple of months when it comes to personal content. Mostly because when I have a major life event or something that truly hurts my heart, I like to keep to myself. I like to pray, read my bible, and only when I’m fully prepared to share or talk I will. I like to be in a good place both spiritually and emotionally for what comes with sharing.
I’m here, and I’m ready to share just how crazy my life has been. Around November The Husband and I found out that God had other plans for our ministry. This was extremely difficult. The church that we were at wasn’t just our ‘job church,’ but it was our home church. It was the church we married at, started our ministry at. The people of that church loved us when both The Husband and I were at our worst. You can read more about our testimony HERE.
It took a lot of prayers (A LOT) to come to terms that God had other plans for us. We didn’t understand, but we put our faith in His hands and kept moving forward. We took a couple of months to let it sink in and get our heads on straight before we really started to pursue Gods next step.
April 2017-Feb 2018
All during this time I was also having severe pain right below my chest. This pain was the worst pain I have ever experienced in my life. Including childbirth. This pain had been going on about once every month or two (landing me in the ER) and I had been seeing a specialist trying to figure out what was causing it. We did every test possible to figure it out. All of which was coming up clear.
We finally got a diagnosis. I had what is called Sphincter of Oddi Dysfunction category III (you can read about it here) Basically; it’s not a good thing to have and very hard to diagnose. Due to this and all my test coming back clear we decided to not have the risky surgery due to high complication and risk factors.
The Husband and I took a trip out to Alabama to visit a church God had put in our path. Vincent Revival Center. The thought of moving to another state other than Texas was hard for us. But we prayed and prayed, and it wasn’t until the last day of our trip did God confirm to me through the morning sunlight (another story for another time) that Alabama was our next home. And I had peace. The Husband got his confirmation the morning after we got back. The new church was perfect and He clearly had plans for us. The new church is a lot bigger than our old one so it’s lost the small community feel but that just means there are more people to support us. They even have a system called Aplos (https://www.aplos.com/text-to-give-church) that allows you to donate to the church over text, making it much easier for us to show our love of it. Hopefully, this will lead to new horizons.
January 20th I had my last and final attack that landed me in the ER and on a path to needing surgery.
On February 18 we made the announcement to our church that we were leaving and that God had other plans for us in ministry. This was one of the hardest days we had during this experience. The plans had all started; we found a house we liked, we decided to live on the church property (I’m over the moon about this part). Feb. 25 was The Husbands last day at our church, and March 1st was our set day to leave San Antonio.
All the while I was also dealing with my medical issues. The doctor wanted to have the surgery before we left and we were running out of time. Due to insurance issues and having to squeeze in a last minute surgery. I was set to go on Friday, February 23. It was an outpatient surgery so I was expecting for everything to be fine. And it was until it wasn’t. I went home, was in pain but it was manageable until around 8-9 pm I threw up and started having tons of pain I couldn’t ignore.
Long story short, I ended up in the hospital with pancreatitis for 5 days. For those of you who don’t know, pancreatitis is a condition where the pancreas becomes inflamed and swollen. I didn’t even know before having these problems, but the pancreas is a small organ which helps with digestion and is located behind the stomach. It was incredibly painful. I read about using cbd oil to help manage the pain, as apparently pancreatitis is fairly common in dogs and cbd oil is one of the best treatments for the associated pain they have with it. Read more about that by following the link. In the end, I just dosed myself up on pain killers until I ended up in hospital.
As well as that, I missed our last Sunday at church, and we had to push our move date back. The day after I got out of the hospital The Husband had to leave for Alabama without us. (This was and is extremely hard). He left last Wednesday to finish preparation with our home.
I’m not sure when we will be headed that way, but I give it a week. Overall, life has been crazy. But in the end, we gave it all to God, and He took care of us. We are all extremely ready to be in Alabama and to meet our new church family.
If you made it to the end, thank you for reading. I’ll be back more often as this process continues and share all the new/fun advancers we will be on.