As i’m sitting here tonight, about to watch a show with my husband. I’m going through Facebook and came across a video of Beth More. Its just a short video of her telling a story that has nothing to do with what i’m about to go on about but God just put this in my heart that I needed to share or put on paper aka blog post haha.
Jared not to long ago got this amazing job. He is home at nights and on weekends for the first time since we have been together and oh how amazing it is to have him home. But with this job comes even more worries about money. Money is so tight. I have been so down and depressed for the last couple of days just thinking of how I can not buy my kids any new clothes or even Easter baskets for tomorrow. I know I shouldn’t feel this way, but I just do. I can’t seem to control my emotions. And I want to stop feeling this way before it has a chance to get worse. I’ve seen it happen firsthand. I’ve seen some of my friends that depressed that they’ve turned to medical marijuana so their symptoms can be relieved, even if it’s just for a short time. They even learnt how to smoke weed without papers because they just needed to have that relief. You can learn more here – https://www.budexpressnow.net/8-ways-to-smoke-weed-without-papers/. But it did help them. It helped them to seek out the help they needed because they much preferred not feeling depressed than feeling it. Good for them, but as I said, I can’t go through it myself. And I know it’s a small thing to feel like that over, but it’s just the way it is. The need to save that money for when we need food or diapers or whatever else that may come up that we will need. My kids have clothes and do they really need an Easter basket that will be used for not even an hour. Yes they do, right? Then it came to me as I sit here tonight looking at Facebook right after watching that video I come across pictures of a friend’s children and there Easter baskets and I want to cry. But then I had this overwhelming feeling that it was OK. Everything was going to be OK. God was going to take care of us like he always has and our needs would be met. That I just needed to put my faith in him, and not to worry so much. My kids were going to survive without those things. Easter is not about baskets, eggs, and candy. That it was about him. His resurrection. The day he rose from the dead. Maybe this lesson God was and is trying to teach me is that I am looking at things all wrong. Yes, it is nice to be able to buy new things for my children, but that teaching my children what Easter is really about, comes first and the materialistic things come last. To trust in my Lord God and he will always take care of me and my family.
Some of you might think that I am crazy about sharing with you the troubles that I am going through. Or even have other thoughts about the situation but that is ok. I want to be open with my readers and money is not always an issue in my family. But I know I am blessed with what I have and many other people in this world have way less. So be grateful of what you have and even what you do not, because God would never put something on your plate that he did not think you could handle or overcome.
Thanks for listening or reading I should say 🙂 Happy Easter everyone. I hope you all have a blessed day tomorrow!