For the past 3 years I have been a stay at home mom, and I have loved being able to do so. I know that it is a huge privileged and that not all woman get to stay home with there children. One being my mom, she had to work all the time to keep food on the table for my brother and I and I am grateful that she was strong enough to handle that on her own when she had too. She taught me at a young age that things in life do not come easy and that I have to work hard for what I have in life. I have had a job since I was 14, mainly due to the fact that I did not like the clothes that my mom bought for me, and I know that if she could she would have she would have gotten the things I thought at the time were important to me but my dad said OK then get a job and buy what ever you want. So I did just that, I worked at a youth camp for the summer until school started back up. I loved being independent, making my own money from a very young age (I think I get that from my mom). A trait that I am very proud of. My mom is and was a great mother and knowing everything she has been through that God will always provide. He did for us when we were growing up and will now.
For me, the hardest part of being of being a stay at home mom is not bringing home the money and having to rely on Jared to take care of me and our children. This is something I have been struggling with, to not worry and let God have control, and to have faith that we will never go without. I know with all my heart that God has never in my whole life ever let me down and have always provided for me and my family when needed. So why is it so much more difficult for me just to let go. Maybe its because I have children now?
This is my biggest struggle. Things are not always easy in life and things will never be perfect but I DO have faith in Christ. I know he will never let my family go without. I need to work harder at not worrying about what may happen and know he will provide.
Having this problem does not make me a bad christian or person. I am human, I am not perfect in any way, but I know I am loved and that I will have peace about this as long as I keep praying. So those of you moms out there who may or may not have problems about contently worrying whether it be about money or any other aspect of life. Pray for peace, let God give you peace of mind!
Matthew 6:33-34 “Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously and he will give you everything you need. So do no worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will bring its own worry’s. Today’s troubles are enough for today.”
Philippians 4:6-7 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
We all have our issues dont we. I am not able to stay home as I am the main breadwinner in the family and I dont allow myself to think too much about this. I really believe that if I do, I will be lost and miserable and feel guilt. Sometimes I feel like I am sitting on a ledge between wanting to bring up my children more and wanting this career, and in all honesty not having an easy choice to even change it. Frankly it sucks at times.